I’ve never really felt like I fit in. I never fit into a social mold, a specific table at lunch, or a specific club. I just floated. I sprinkled myself where I wanted to be and let nature take its course. Saying all this, I also never felt like I had many friends. I had some but I guess it never felt like I had enough.
Walking in that rhythm I never felt like my friends were… my friends. Like real friends. Front Row Friends. I CAN say that throughout my life I have been blessed with knowing many beautiful people.However, they come and go. Never the same as seasons move on. Always changing as the wind changes directions.
I won’t lie. I constantly question why this is. I have had moments where I didn’t understand why some that I went to High School with still hung out but I only have Facebook acquaintances. I really got serious about this question this past year. As I turned 25, I asked the Lord to shake me out like a rug and reveal areas that need healing. Friendships were one of them.
Through this post (that I really struggled with finding words- and finally gave it to God), I have been forced to face the answers to my questions.
First, who is God as a FRF?
He is everything in every moment. Always within reach. Never intimidated by what we go through, ask, or feel.
He is always there to help and guide.
Second, who am I as a FRF?
The goal is to be like Christ is to me for others.
Available. Always ready to listen. Always ready to comfort. A constant.
Finally, what is my definition of FRF?
The same as above mentioned.
As I was reflecting on these FRF traits, I remembered something I had learned recently about the science of Controlled Burns.
One of the main reasons that farmers put together a controlled burn is to maintain the health of nature. Controlled burns help rid of weeds and other harmful growths. They can bring back nutrients, bring down the risk of wildfires, and ultimately lead to better future growth.
So- that’s it. Simple as that. FRF rid of weeds like lies and pride. They bring back nutrients by reminding me of my dreams and goals. They encourage during stressful seasons. FRF act like a Controlled Burn.